I had many interesting dreams during this little snooze, and one of them included overindulging in one of my favorite candies: de la Rosa Mazapanes. These candies are not for everybody, because they are just a peanut confection. In fact, I think that I am the only one in my family who actually eats them. (I secretly love this!)
Every time I eat a mazapan or even think about them, I'm taken back to summers when I was younger and I used to walk with my cousins to the convenient store on the corner of my grandparents' block to buy candy and gum. For $1, I could get four mazapanes, whereas my cousins could only get one small candy bar. I always felt like I came up on a great deal because of this.
I'm not sure if I dreamed about these candies because I'm doing this cleanse, or if it's because my friend and I were talking about them before I took my nap, but either way, I woke up craving them like crazy! I didn't give in though. I got up, drank my Spark and I went to the gym.
Today I struggled through 3 miles. I'm not super happy with my current physical condition. I used to be a able to run steadily at a t 6.0 and I could up my speed to 8.0 for sprint intervals, but today I ran at a steady 5.4 until the last few minutes when I bumped my speed up to 6.0 to finish my run... and I was dying. I'm going to have to start pushing myself a lot harder to get where I need to be by October, but I will get there.
When I am running, I have a little mantra that I repeat to myself when I can feel myself starting to fade. I tell myself that I am a machine. I repeat this over and over until I finish my runs. Because I believe whole-heartedly that I can do anything I set my mind to. I will drop weight. I will improve my speed and endurance, and I will finish the Long Beach Half Marathon under 2:30.
I am a machine.
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